Intimacy in Worship

Sometimes when in worship as in a moment with love itself. We find ourselves both questioning our feelings and our motive. I find it interesting that people look for sometimes far too practical of signs to look for a song or a moment of worship when in fact. Worship is not a book or a schedule. It does not sometimes line around practical nor does it always fit in a well centered box.

Sometimes what God is wanting to say has nothing to do with our percieved seasons and times. It might be true that for one season to the next some things do no apply but we must keep ourselves willing and able to change at the last moment so that we might be able to allow God to speak past our borders of what we want to hear from him.

Intimacy is the only way this can be achieved in all that we do and are we find ourselves on our knees at his throneroom. Praying that he will release the captives and many time praying he will release us in to furvor of praise and adoration. Amazingly enough the only time TRUE worship is recieved is when we release our pre-concieved notion of How God arrives, speaks and what he intends to say.

For our ways are not his and sometime what we feel or think will never be but what God has given us is what needs to be given. Wither we like it or not.

A Peaceful Silence

There is sometimes a peacful silence and many times a loud silence that says. Please break me! In this I find that in the peaceful silence God give solice to this world that can sometimes be overwhelming. In many other instances we find ourselves like echos in time reliving our past or sometimes playing back things in our head. Because the silence makes us think of that used to be or what once was or even more scary what God might be saying..to our decieving hearts.

A Peacful silence that God brings is full of comfort and full of love that we might find comfort in his midst and feel comfortable that he is there with us. That we find comfort in what some might call an uncomfortable silence. We fit our lives sometimes in hectic noise so that we might feel comfortable with very little is going on or far too much of the wrong things are.

Our fear in the silence is that we might find that God is not happy with us. Or that we have very little come to the point to allow a silence so that we might hear his voice in a clearer way.

Questioning God / Motives and Feelings

Sometimes we find ourselves looking at the face of God and wondering just what it is we have done. We question our motives and even the purpose of the Lord hoping that "God has it right" some people may not admit this. However I will profess to being one who occasionally wonders in my decietful and barren heart if God indeed knows what he is doing?

How many times do we look at what the Lord has done for us then look at our current situation and wonder if God has taken a vacation from our lives.
But the truth is that he will never leave or forsake us. He always will be there for as long as we want the Lord in our lives. Here is the key. Are we allowing God to work in our lives. Recently I heard the Lord speak to me and talking to me in excess of 3X he told me to do various things. Each time honestly I have heard and even professed to other what the Lord has said but still remained in my place that the Lord has clearly had told me to move from.

Sometimes I find it difficult to See through the clouds of Religious Jargon and the touchy feely of what people feel or think and get down to the Consuming Fire of the Lord. We are always including myself wanting a QUICK fix. The best way to attain the Lords blessings is to Wait patiently. When we do and have an expectant Heart the Lord will shower his mercy and grace upon us.

Many times we create a God who does not exist. One who allows us to do what it is we do in our lives and sometimes not looking to the Lord but to others. People can sometimes become our God. We loose sight of where our vision is. We forget that in the Lord is where our heart must be in order to achieve what he has set for us in his plan.

Holding onto God?

In Holding onto God. We think we can achieve something. But it is not us that has an ability to HOLD onto God. But God that grasps onto us through our will. Granted the practicality of it all is that we must persue the Lord but the very desire to do so is planted both by his will as well as our desire and openess to know and feel him closer in our lives. In much of my loss or sometimes just everyday struggles I find that as I desire to Hold on and my actions follow that. God Comes in an give me the grace to continue on with him. To continue this wonderful, empowering and rewarding journey that sometimes is not easy. Actually most of the time it is not. In all of this I find a Joy in serving God but a understanding that I am wicked and needing of his mercy. I am ever needy of his forgiveness of his Love and of his sacrafice and daily I struggle to be more like him. I fall and though I get back up again. I know that God has made himself known to the world and to me and have no excuse to keep on the same path I am on but ever changing and climbing the course that the lord has planned out for me. For Glory is in the top of this place that the Lord has set. Not mine but his and therefore I will walk and not grow weary. I will soar on eagles wings but know that my wicked soul had nothing to do with it but that it was the Lord who did not let Go for his promise is that as Long as I want him to be there. There he will be. Forever.

Will These Dry Bones Live. Ez 37-38

In an Annoting Class recently held by my Shepard Jose. I found that there are something that even we cannot explain. That God can work quickly, fast, swift and without an understanding of just how and why but just that he has. I find myself sometimes thinking Is it just me. But pulling back I saw the effect on all.

Can these Dry bones Live. We all know the word "burnt out" sometimes we feel burnt our spiritually or maybe as a father or a mother taking care of our kids in everyday life we find ourselves looking for something, someone or just a place to call a break, a vaction or maybe a refresher.

In the word of God many people and prophets of God felt this way or upon walking in the mist of dry bones began to feel this same feeling. For christians the source of their power, their will comes from God alone. So their tower is hard to crumble. Because in God. They are indestructable. The four winds. The breath of God lies within them and in adversity they only see a greater reason to press in to God not a reason to walk away.

These Dry bones are bones of the complacant christian who cannot hear the voice or the call of God but simply going through the ritualistic action of praising and worshiping. But the question asked is. Can these Dry bones live. The reply comes
"ONLY YOU ALONE KNOW LORD"...To Prophecy to the breath of god and proclaim what the Lord has already said. This is the solution to the Dry Bones. Can these Dry Bones, Now Sing, Dance, Praise, Hallow your Name, Can they live an example, proclaim your name, love others unconditionally?

Let these Dry bones do what it is that you have made them to do.
Amen!

Hearing His Voice.

Recently when while listening to a teaching on the Annointing. As strange as that might seem. I was again given a strange picture. The picture was of dead fish in a net with diamonds. The fish that were dead were bleeding black and not red. Then I asked puzzled what all of this meant. A answer can back. Clear and concise. This is a season to live for others and not for yourself. And through this we might be saved through faith and obedience.

I knew this was going to require alot of me. It frightened me.

Sometimes when we sacrafice we do it out of a launch pad. Of doing the right thing and being on the God Train. We pipe down. nothing is going to stop me now. We feel no pain in the pain we walk through adversity and in this we pat ourselves on the shoulder that we have walked the walk.

However other times we are asked to be sacraficial of our time, our finances and our lives and we are burdened by it. Though we know we are being asked the same level of grace is not there. We begin to wonder where we are at and question our relationship with God.

This recently has been the area I have found myself. Not in questioning so much but more in the level of grace not being there. At least not spiritually. In the task put to me I begin to wonder if I am doing the right things or am I spinning my wheels.

As tough as it may all sound. This is the truth of what is happening. Sometimes our battles are fought in the quiet times. Little words are found and little faith is found in ourselves. My babble could not even free me from this knowing of a greater calling and a greater capacity that God is calling me to.

SItting in a christian ditch of sorts I am realizing once again that I am being required of bumping a notch up and that my all is not all enough. God is requiring more of me so that I might be refined. Not perfect but to a level of knowledge that I am not. Humbled and looking for him again. In hearing his voice so strongly again I wonder if my time away has not been Good for me. Away from the clamor of hoofbeats of the army if you will of all. In all of this seeing that God speaks clearly to me but I choose to listen or not.

I am not denying it. My time away and with God and sometimes looking at the circumstance and not God has left me numb. We must be careful that this not happen to us. I am seeing that were I am at is where God has me. I cannot try and make new standards but live within what God has given me so that I might learn and move on.

The key is hearing his voice. Prayer, Reading and talking to God in an intimate way.

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