Season of Move

The Second day of this test and it is now Friday night. I did all the usual things that I usually do but something different about it all. It almost today strangely felt like a dream. I know it sounds strange but almost in my surety of Gods move. I am almost in a numb state of simply pressing forward and forgetting what lay behind. It is almost a very very strong peace that is not leaving me feelingness but more feeling towards God and his plan. I don't know how this is all going to Map out in the end but something tells me not to fear and keep moving on. So much I am afraid to connect with certain situation in fear that it might detract my focus.

I am realizing some amazing things in this season of Move.

1. God is Always there even when we think he is not.
2. He always provides though it may not be how or what we expect
3. God gives us the strength to endure anything and he can make us fearless to that which would normally be fearsome.
4. Sin, brings fear and usually defeat. Until we realize he is the one who is in the battle not us. (I feel kind of....useless) :)

I love these revelations. But the most important one is the one I learned today. That we cannot be connected to our possessions more that we are connected with him. For when it may be time to up and move those things hinder us from the step and make the process much slower.

I also learn t that it is our OVERALL message of our life that counts. If others cannot see it perhaps it was because we did not proclaim it or perhaps we were to involved with getting along that we forgot the purpose we are to live for Jesus. This does not exclude getting along. But does not exclude what we stand for either.

And Lastly that we can leave peaceably with the Lord as our aroma when we leave so that others will know what we came for why and will know that we cared for them deeply . Hardness is hopelessness. It plays not part in the Christians Life for Salvation but sometimes it does in the unsaved. It is our calling to Present what we are giving and leave little or no room for personal preference or issues. These are not of God and leave nothing but bitterness, negativity, rejection and a bad taste in the mouth of others.

My prayer this night is that I have never done that and If I ever had that I would be given the same grace and mercy that I have given others and more importantly that God has given me.
I am looking forward to this and I thank my God, My Family, My Father, My Friends and This Blog for enduring another few years of blogging into this next beguiling journey that I call my Life. Indeed another Chapter....worth waiting for.

James

This Journey

I am writing this blog from a secret place. I know that sounds a bit mysterious but it all the better makes for a more interesting blog that it is. This is a blog of reality. Not that the others have not but I believe that this blog will show something of humanity that is inside of me.

I don't know why it is but perhaps you might be able to relate but when you are doing well isn't it a shame that we must always expect the worse to happen during these times. The worst in fact is when that insult comes from our family. I write this because of the 6 1/2 some odd years I have been saved it would seem that my most trials and opposition is from my family.

The even sadder part of this entry is that my family is extremely small. So that leaves me with very little after the fact. In actuality I believe it is why I have taken on the true understanding of the church as being my family because in actuality I really have none. I am the perfect canidate for the circus or world evangelism. Whichever comes first.

I must say it is disheartening and exhilarating all at the same time.. I recently was reading a book called "The Dream Giver" by Bruce Wilkinson where it is clear that our greatest obstacle in our walk of progress of of spiritual journey is our family and close friends.

The Paradox is the fact that in this Journey no matter how hard it may get we need to still have a heart of grace and love for those that persecute us. I think even though it has been hard God has indeed taught me this great lesson. No matter how long I stay or don't. It is very important that I have the same grace for others that he has given me.

In this journey that I pray will soon come to either an end of place of rest I ask a few questions for the Lord. I cannot say what those questions are but I can tell you that they are the reason for the journey. If the answers were so easy we could move on from here and go to the next thing but something tells me that is not what needs to be done here.

I am waiting to see what he wants me to do. But I do know this. It looks like we are in for some more increasing blog entries and more intimate times with God in this new season. I only pray my flesh can hold up to it. I am not feeling all too great. Our greatest attacks come when we are weakest. This gives God all the glory when we are triumphant. I am indeed sick, and tired if there ever was a time.

I remember one time speaking to Jose a close friend and Shepard of mine. He stated that our hearts grow weary when we get so far and are let down. Delay or causing delay makes us weary. When you are the cause to your own delay yes this is the case but when it is from things around you. I can only say this. It makes you much stronger. As dim as the light seems at this very moment. I know I will not remain in a darkened room that much longer.

God Thank you for This Test.

What I See

It was not to long ago I heard an echo of time lost and forgot
of things I thought were taught only to be learnt again.

Forever I saw the revelation of something quite sinister it
played below the overplayed issue of sin.

It was far more
dangerous you see. It was of family lost, dreams lost in pursuit
of a dream of greed.

For everything got another thing lost to this dream.
An exchange for a mere 30 pieces of silver and lost king.

Two jobs each no family to see. Children left to insanity.
Taught by the world left open by the sea.

Driven by what can be gained what can be achieved.
Only to find they lost something greater indeed.

As slowly the spiritual understanding, as the desire for fire
was snuffed out there was nothing left and nothing but old dead tattered
seed.

With no God, no desire no passion left they worked till they received
what the world would promise they would get. They got it. It got them
held them hard by the heart.

As they saw their family, their life and their
God torn apart.

AS they held this treasure close and trembled in an uncomfortable
and delirious delight. They were slightly pleased but wanted more for
such a dreary fight.

As everything faded and the treasure lie there there was no man to see.
just a treasure that was worn and and had a little less gleam.

Across just not too far very close you see just set in valley
was a far greater site. A building of a great palace the glimmer shined bright.
It reflected from the very sky even at night.

Within this place a man who worked, but did not forget the rain must come for his seed to grow but must plant and plow the field high and low.
He plodded, he planted but he never let go of the reason he was there and sometimes in season there is wind sleet and snow.

He had no treasure at least one that would taint, or diffuse a glow.
but he sat there children surrounding, wife smiling and a faith not in a shadow

Thank you Dan Brown and Atheist

This entry is a humble and irreverent thanks to the groups of people, organizations and authors who are standing to disprove the existence of God. It might seem like a mundane thing to thank but as this entry will soon explain it is inside these thought out articles, books and groups that we find our most powerfully no-nonsense believers. I include myself in this because I myself was one who believed this very way. The best way to explain it is Jesus-Less. Some might say Godless. But I believe all have found their only personal god but not Thee God. Because of these Jesus-less people are the greatest adversaries on this journey. I call it a journey because like Jeremiah we are on a journey of faith, life and blessing wither we understand it or not.

Thanks to Dan Brown more people are asking questions and researching something they might not ever dreamed to research before. It sparks an interest. And for those who will believe as they may. Indeed they will not change. But for those who are indeed seeking truth and not just a reason to live their lives the way they want to Dan Brown has provided a darkened path that at first sight or read one must either reject or research. This has been the plight of many and has led many to be saved and come to a Revelation of the Real Jesus Christ and his Life and not the one made up by Dan Brown.

I am sure Dan Brown did not intend this but that which was made to do evil has benefited for the Good of those who love him or are seeking to find the truth and the light. It must be real difficult being Satan and over stepping your boundaries and your limits always as many times as he does and essentially your actions lead others into salvation.

There is only so long you can oppress your captors before they reject and look for another means of life. With Christ there is hope for all to start off fresh under a new dispensation of Grace not by how or what we act but on who's behalf we act on. It is through Christ Jesus, Who Strengthens me.

Atheist have the ideal of thought. As clever as many seem and they are. My hats go off to those men who wield a word very well. But there is one thing they might not ever attain. The Wholeness of God. The Fullness of his Grace. My prayer for the Atheist is not one of reject, of any ill thought but that one day they might find enough reason or someone might pray not out of ill defeat but out of authority in Christ Jesus for their salvation. Like someone did once for me. Now not only do I have the freedom of thought that Atheist so treasure and of free will but also the gift of salvation, life, compassion, and gift of Grace.

Thank you for all of those who prayed but Most of All.
Thank you Jesus for Saving me.