Faith

I have for so many reasons been recently set outside of myself. I have had to relearn my trust in God. I really don't understand why. I believe it is the process of my faith. My walk has not taken a turn but went through some very uncharted territory. I have doubted and even been in place where I have lost at times my childish faith.

I could take on this idea of nothing ever touches me because of my God and now I can see that from where I am looking but the fact is I am human and my flesh gets afraid and sometimes doubts and sometimes even looses touch with God. The reality of these shows me the Love that God has for his children. I am his child. i fall out of place. I loose my step.. I want to be just like my father. My father is so awesome. I look at myself and realize how far I must come.

I have in this trial been tested in my faith and even in my worship more importantly I believe that my test in my relationship with my father both in heaven and on earth has also been tested. I was overtaken by emotions and forgot just how important my father in heaven is. I was distracted by the things going on around me. I forgot the awesome papa I have. I desire to be just like him and like any son or daughter I want to be just like my father.

Why is it I forget when things get to such a point? Can I be a leader like this? God please help me.

James