Going Back to the Well

It has been some time since my last post. And though some might think that I regret not posting. This I have to say would be the furthest from the truth. I have needed to take some time off to get back to the source of where I find wisdom, love, compassion and even knowledge. I cannot continue to give what God has given me without finding a place to fill my tank so to speak. God has many times showed me that this is the case in many christians lives and namely my own. When the spirit of God comes in we splash and gush others with what God has imparted into our lives but many times seldomly do we go back to the well to refresh ourselves (at least not as often as we should). The result is regurgitated food. Either food from old or a reinterpretation of someone elses food. We become stagnant and the only interest we can bring is the interest of the one who has not heard that analogy, joke or godly vision before.

When we go to the well we get words and inspirations by God that many times cannot be duplicated or have been heard before but failed to have been documented. In other words we get inspriation that is origional and pure. Will we duplicate the words of another. Most certainly. Because that which God says to one he says to millions of others around the Globe. However each has the ability to reach certain people. However ever single time a word is given by God. The word is firstly accepted and activiated in the life of the person who heard it. God likes to kill two birds with one stone many times. He wants the hearer to hear and know and understand that when he speaks it is his life that is in line with it or at least being formed to the shape of that new curve, bend or smooth shaped pot. Forming and shaping us God speaks to all of his chosen. It is a joy to be part of that wonderful experience.

Many people wonder what it might be to be like to be able to speak to God. Some don't wonder; many do speak to him. It is a joy above and among any others to have a relationship where you are spoken to and even corrected by your creator. I love being imperfect. If it was not for the imperfectness that is me. I would not need these things and my relationship to him would not be needed. Sometimes I even fret the day if ever there be a time where I never would not need him. Perposterious! I have found a place where I can gather these things. The time I need to sometimes simply sit and talk and even cry with God. Above and beyond the praise and the rat-a-tat-tat of the drums and shouting of a choir is a far more important need to sit quietly in his precense and hear him. Many times even feel his prescense in my very body. His spirit calming and comforting. Abiding in love and joy and truth. If ever for a short while I need to close myself off from the things around me to enjoy this time there would be nothing I would regret or miss. I love this about fasting. The very most confused and mis-understood thing in a christians life. Many of times people have come to me. What sprituality can you gain by fasting? Starving yourself does not help you. First it is not about starving yourself. It is about prayer and focus on God and away from fleshly desires. Food is not the only thing you abstain from during fasting. I tend to eliminate Christian contemporary or even praise other than heartfelt praise from my listening. What is nobler to repeat the music you hear or sing your praise your heart feels. Try it one day. I promise you will not regret it. God hears and knows your desires. If you ever find yourself behind an invisable wall that keeps you from communing with God stop and listen. God is always trying to reach out to you. I have found that in my walk though many times I have stumbled and fallen and even thought about running away from it all. God wanted me tucked closely underneath him. Sometimes we are like children we refuse to eat or play out of spite or anger but when the times comes we happily will stand up and partake in joys that God has awaiting us. Many times is takes getting past that childish view first. One that I myself have held and had disabled in many ways my communioun with him.

We can minister. But many times we need to be ministered to. Though I am sure many a minister is out there to take on this task I found the greatest minister of them all is God himself. He speaks what you need to hear and seldomly ever more than what you need to hear unless indeed you do need to hear it to that capacity. He speaks in a kind and quiet voice and sometimes an abrupt and authoritive one. Each time I feel the precense of his very being like the father I never had. Saying son, walk with me. Let me show you the way. When you fall I will be here. In your victories I will be here. In your defeats I will be here. In your pain. I will be here. The key word is I. The question is; will we?

Okay..Can you say cheese Beautiful? 

Are you ready for your Close-up MaryJane! 

Speaking of Victory! I have already won and this is my Prize! 

Fighting From Victory Not For Victory

Sunday a sermon had me thinking about the idea that God has fought the battle already and that I may myself be trying to fight a battle that has already been won. Perhaps in our disobedience sometimes we forget the fact that the battle does belong to the Lord. Though he fights the battle we must abide in his direction. As in a war there is a leader that heads up the front protecting his soldiers and if they listen to the commanding officer that have a better chance of survival than if they do not. Clearly something that I have thought about but have seldom excercised. This week I am going to excercise that the idea. I am going to go forward with what God asked me to do a long time ago and see what God has in store for me. I know I have boasted how my site is not religious but as with the last few enteries it looks like it has been impossible to hold back what God is doing and saying in my life and in the Body that is the church. To some that may be religious. For me it is my life. I have seen recently people torn down by sin and even myself falling into a hole of sorts. But luckily I feel God holding on and I do feel at peace with God though I may not be at peace with myself. The idea of fighting from Victory is to live and work in your life as if the struggle has already been taken care of. knowing that God in our obedience will deal with things IN HIS WILL. It is our job simply to be in his will.

Sometimes struggling christians are swimming up river and wonder why it is so hard. It it hard. yes. But I think sometimes and namely myself I sometimes make it harder than it actually is. Is there a larger since of acomplishment? Not really just a further distance to travel. It reminds me a Relay race i watched where children and adults participated. One of the adults confident in his abilities set his line further than anyone else. But he set it way too far away. In the end the man was exhausted even though he was in good shape and not only did he come in last he staggered to the finish line 8 seconds behind everyone else. Sometimes I think we as people do the same thing. Perhaps our goals are set too high and ultimatly our failure is not in failing to accomplishing the Goal but failure in planning and setting the goal in an improper way. Without the guidence of the one who sees and knows all. Our Master and Commander.

As stated earlier I feel God breaking me from my circumstances. The Circumstances that have held me for many years. Choices, decisions, realationships, understanding, obedience, follow thru. Integrity. These things are important. But far more important is the living out of what God has taught me though the test and the trials. I am no differnet that anyone else. I hold no more knowledge than anyone else God is working with. I feel we are all on a level playing field sometimes we just feel better when we can convience others that we have a tilted table. That we have been dealt a bad hand. Th Bad hand becomes the focus and we cannot go further than what we believe to be our only abilities therefore our final destination. A lie of the enemy incarnated through people speaking badly about us. People who judge. Friends who leave when times get rough. Or seemingly a God who becomes quiet. Does he become quiet or do we simply begin to believe the lie that we cannot talk to God when we are being tested, in sin, fallen short, or questioning our faith. I know that through my trials and through my sin and through the rough times It can sometimes be hard. The key is knowing that the Victory over your soul, your purpose and your plan has already been set. It is merly our jobs to walk through that door. Accept his authority over our lives and follow his commands like a good soldier. It sounds easy but it is a simple battle of the flesh and the spirit. As Paul said this battle can only be won in Christ. It is Christ who set's free. It is Christ who can defeat the castle of 1000 enemies. It is Christ who can lay waste your opressors. It is Christ who can bring his purpose and plan into your life. It is Joshua who with Christ defeated over 30 Kings and took over the nations they ruled over. I do not believe God has made a maze that we must go through to get the cheese I simply have come to understand the simple interception of our flesh (faith in the wrong things) is what twarts the simple plan that God has set that takes us off course. So as we fight the trials, we fight for marriages, we fight for finances, we fight for freedom, and we fight for a better relationship. The fight has already been fought. We must picture ourselfs beside Jesus who is seated at the Right hand of God knowing that are destiny is eternal and has already been set. His plans and his purpose and his war fought and victorious. So why do we cringe when it is time to fight a battle that has already been won? Perhaps sometimes we need a better relationship with our Master and Commander of the Great War to know that he is already been throned and my victory is in him and not in myself. Awsome to know that no matter how weak, no matter how small, no matter how timid we may be. The Creator, The Author of life himself has already written the ending in our favor.

Sea World with the Church! YEAH! ..Go Shamoo! 

Picnic At Jose's house! That me by the way 

I used to be a Product Manager for Military Computer company here is a photo from an Orange County Register Photo Shoot. I just thought it was cool. By the way the water is on very Hot! 

The Basis of All Things is Tragic

"TheBasis of things is tragic , and intellect makes a man shut his eyes to this fact and become a superior person. One of the great crimes of intellectual philosophy is that it destroys a man as a human being and turns him into a supercilious spectator; he cuts himself off from relationship with human stuff as it is and becomes a statue."

Oswald Chambers
Baffled to Fight Better pg.124-125

The Realization of the Basis of things is tragic both explains the need for Jesus Christ in this world as well as the need that all things need not be perfect all the time or blissful. I appreciate the observation of Chambers in his understanding that suffering goes beyond theology and takes a man like Job or the sufferer to the point of realizing that the only thing that can stand in this situation is realtionship in knowing that Gods will always be. There is a freedom in knowing that not all my days will be roses but God however can come on and transform a day set for darkness to be a day of light by his will not my own. My only will is faith that he is able to do it and trust in His name. Being a former intellectual minded person I have had to lay rest rational and accept the realistic. Not all things are rational but all things are realistic. I cannot explain why atoms split or what elements make up an atom or which came first the chicken or the egg? Ha! that was thhrown in for comedic pleasure. But what I can believe is that there is a great work at work and that work I cannot always fathom and explain. Chambers says that man is so attached to his own theology of who God is that is is willing to Lie in order not to dishonour God or what his belief in who he is. In otherwords we daily have concepts in our minds that are not shaped by the scriptures that we begin to create a God we feel we must defend. Our Humanistic qualities or our faith in Secular Humanism get us to believe that there has to be an answer to all things. In this we create a God that fits the argument to as not to bring dishnour to the God that we created and therefore shake our faith. A very powerful argument. Job was never shaken. His belief was that God and his relationship to him was 1st not second to his theology. A theology that his friends held above their relationship and would not let go whereas Job once held dear to the same theology now through his suffering realized that he must believe in the simpliest of God's promises not the most complex of explaination and theological religious view. A supreme battle fought and won and a great reward given for Job for this. He was not refined. He was an object the Lord used to show the Church and it choice for Theological over relationship.

Why this example of Job? I find that the Church many times conflicts with this message. Chambers says the Secular Humanism is Satanism with a mask. I do believe this stament to be true. The idea of self is the soul basis of Satanism as well as Humanism and Spritualism. All the same belief with a different mask. So if the basis of all things is Tragic why so optimistic. Because Jesus is the only one that can break that Tragedy or at least explain it.

"...Shallow optimism is as telling people "look on the bright side of things," or that every cloud has a silver lining. There are some clouds that are black all through." -Chambers

An exceptance of this brings a reality that we cannot always be happy we cannot always be optimistic. But my Joy comes from Christ which is apart from the logical and rational sense of the world. In essense my belief in him has given me a realistic outlook that is not optimistic, but realistic. Realistic to know that God can do all things in his will. His plan nor his love will ever faulter and his love does endure forever. In this my optiimism does not come from shallow observation, or shallow logic. But true and unfailing belief in Christ. When our belief comes from Realism people see that we are real and not religious statues with no mind. We simply understand that the God we serve is real so in that we understand that he is real others will realize the same fact. Many spiritualist and Secular humanist have found themselves in the church leading or teaching and some playing the part in a christian church. Misrepresenting like Eliphaz and Bildad did. Comforting or defending in the name of their named theology. I have been guilty of this myself. Not realizing the unfathomable things of God that Job had through his suffering accepted. He was not a man refined by suffering. He was already stated by God to be a man that would face and be tested and persevere. I do not believe God would have test Job in such a manner without already knowing the outcome. So Jobs trails was a testimony written to show hipocracy of the church and theological and religious, pious and what Chambers calls Priggish. I feel slightly harsh but through his Passion the Love of God is not the love of man's the rational love and realistic love that God shows cannot be explained with logic or rational but only by a true realtionship to God himself.

Reflection:
Do we suffer for the sake of others or for self? I have asked this many times it reminds me of the dramatic interlude people crying over spilt milk to see who might help to clean it up. We do it many times. Manipulation in the name of wanting others to come to our rescue. We know we could accomplish the task on our but when posed with the idea that others might do it for us we fail to do anything about it. That suffering is for the sake of self. The suffering based on suffering for others is done in darkness. Very seldomly there is crying or at least no report of it. The ones who suffer in darkness are seldomly the first in line to speak but the first with an open ear. Why? Relationship. Realationship to Christ because of their suffering and becasue of their Adversity in that suffering. Through Christ and not in self.

Suffering is not about crying, weeping or mourning always. Though Job cried out against the very day he was born. Many times in this world it is quiet and unheard. Attraction to destruction or poison to the mind or body. Ilimationation of Self worth and therefore destruction of self. This results in destructive living, pain not willed to endure or not meant for you, as well as hate of ourselves or God.

The key word is self. An over exposition of self. Over endulgence brings depression, hate, anger, antimosity, self futilism and a Empirilistic view that cannot be penetrated except by the very hand of God. Even that must be willing by the person before that can be accomplished.

What is the point? The point simply is that all things in suffering, in self indulgence might all have explaination. But when God comes in a manner that we are not ready for yet is reflected is what we already to be known in the scriptures as true will we run away, deny or accept like Job did that God must not be as everyone is saying but as God himself has said. I will have faith in what God has said and believe in him and his truth and deny all the rest and know that though he slay me,
I trust in him.

The Basis of all things is Tragic. This happened with Adam ate from the Apple and the world that God had beset for man was turned upside down. From then all that was born was Tragic (dead) without Christ. As Christians and people of this world we must realize that all things are Tragic. Birth to many is Tragic. How many times have you heard in troubled times or by Futilist. "Well another beautiful child born is a miserable world." or something to that effect. It is quite simple to see the unhappiness of this world if you leave your house, city, town or state now and then. You will see that not all things are roses not all clouds have a silver lining. There is not always a light at the end of the Tunnel. But there is always the light and the Truth of Jesus Christ. Which luckily by all human standards has no standards, no rational or logic so therefore no boundaries and noone can speak against that which they cannot comprehend. Even if they try the word of God himself not the christian himself will be proven true..

"O Lord deliver me from this lust of always vindicating myself." - St. Augustine

Living In The Glory Of God

I am listening now to David Crowder's "Only You" and It has me thinking of the Intimacy and overflowing joy and love that God Brings. So powerful so intimate so exact and so real. I never thought I could ever feel this way about anyone let alone someone that I cannot see. I can feel him and many times I see him in others. God is so profound in his love and I do adore him. Can we adore him all the time? I do believe we can in living in his presence we can live in perfect harmony with him giving us not perfection in our live but steadiness in our attitude and emotion eventually allowing our situations to get better with time and direction in God. There are times I want to write him a letter but as I pray at the end of my bed I picture a pen writing the very words all filled with love, sometimes tears and other times adoment authority in him.
I can only look at the humanity that is me. I am not perfect but like all I have things that I would like God to deal with but the operative is help. I want God to help me. God gave me a revelation. Pride comes in this world when a man rises above his leader or teacher and pulls himself out of the direction, accountability and precense of that leader. In Christ a christian's pride can easily come when he believes he can achieve living in the image of Jesus Christ without the Help, precense, direction or accountability of Jesus himself. The world says they can be good without God. God says there is None who does good..not one. The Bible says God is Good and God is Love. One cannot achieve being Good or true love without God himself. This is a fact driven by the bible and can be seen by simply observing the world around you. As an intellectual who played in coffee shops for quite sometime I realized that intellectual's did not have an open mind they simply had an openly selective one. When they began to question themselves and the books they read where is there to Go? When all of the ideals of humanity and it's view of love, understanding, joy and freedom have been twarted. Gods will be the only one that stands. I know this becasue the God I serve has proved it every time in my own life. The testimony of Christ is that his ideals of what this world was or will ever be will be the only ones left standing. Look the world around you look carefully, study and see that yes God is in all things. He is even in you. But since God is not a rude and forceful God you can Choose to have him live in you or not. Th Trees we see on vactions, mountain tops covered by Cloud. The birds that fly in almost perfect formation all created by the God that this world cannot or will not see as being the living creation of Gods. It must pain God daily that so many do not see.
If they see cannot they not lay it down. It is so much worth it. In all my 27 years of living on this earth yesterday being my birthday I am so appreciative of the Life I have been given. I respect the lives of others knowing they like I have been created in the same way. To achive perfect christanity I believe to be impossible. But I believe they way we percieve perfect christianity in many cases or at least the world is based on laws and regualtions, commandments. Is this how a christian is judged? No..It is not. God's freedom he has given is that we would be made aware of the place from which we have fallen and to have perfect faith that he can change what some might think to be unchangable. A sinful life. A hard to break habit or bondage. He has come to release all so that All we can ever know is that we had nothing to do with it. That the pain that once laid on our shoulders is no longer there. The death that we endured our entire lives brought us life when we found him and we were no longer dead. Alive with joy, alive with him, his authoritive power to bring all to their knees. My breath is just a breath a short time to live. A short time to speak read or write. A short time I have. What will I do in short life how can I burn my time. I I burn my time will I burn later for it. I must be fruitful I know this. To be fruitful in him is not to try and be fruitful in him but to deiberatly allow God to be fruitful in mine so that Others would see that Glory that he brings into the hearts and lives of others. his live is perfect and unfailing. How many can say that about their own relationships and even if you can how long can you say that is will continue to be unfailing and perfect. He is the author and the finisher. Should we not be the same. Should we not use the very Book he wrote so that our lives might reflect who God is? I am crying now as I write this. Becasue God has been so graceful in my life. I have fouled things up many time. Many times I have lost it. I thought I had it but in looking back I lost the love the joy the understanding the power that God gie those whom he loves. One cannot believe the lies of the enemy (of this world) is they do they surely will loose the battle of life. Life is not one by the largest screamer, pouter, crier. It won by the one who prays the most, reads and speaks to the one who has the power to overcome all of the things of this world. We cannot fight this battle on our own. Our parents and friends can only go so far. God can go the whole way and will always be there by our side. Speak to him tonight. Cry to him and see that though you might think you are talking to air. Have faith that you are not and the living precense of God will come down. know and Believe that God is the author and the finisher of you life that he is the soul reason why you live and why you breath that his love, temperance is far better than our own will ever been. There is a law of this world as there is a law of gravity and we are accountable to that very law and one we recognize that Jesus died for us and Yes we all know he loves us but that he also guides us and also gives us the breath that we breath either in clean or dirty air God did not say well since you do not know me I choose not to give you breath. He gave all breath so that All might live. He gave all minds so that all of those might think and reason and know by the world around him that Jesus Christ is the Lord and Savior of All.



Romans 1:20
For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature–have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

Do Not Be Yoked with Unbelievers

2nd Corthinans 6:14
Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteouness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a beliver have in common with an unbeliever? What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols?

If you continue through the chapter you will get more details by Paul but the question is Why? Why must we not be Yoked with unbelievers. The word Yoke is to symbolize what oxen used to plow a field. It was an attachment that went from one side of one oxen to the other oxen walking next to the other. The idea of unevenly yoked is that the bar would not be centered and therefore would cause one to drift one way or the other causing havoc and eventually tearing up the harvest and the seed that was planted. This would not allow it grow. Cause Chaos as well as destroy much time and purposed farming. Two people going in two different direction no matter how noble they are. Is no direction.

People sometimes wonder why their relationship always fails at a certain point. I myself questioned the same thing. People who have chosen Gods way but are not practing the things of God. Does that change things? No not really. your choice to live for God though not lived out in your action was a commitment and profession to God. Take over.. We now go by your blueprint. Is God trying to get their attention. Many times I know the scriptures account God as being a jealous God. We know by our faith that the scriptures do not lie. A Jealous God will do what he can to get the attention of his children. How many times though are we trying to readjust the yoke to see if God can work in a situation that God himself cannot bless or ordain because he will not go against his own word.

I see relationships outside my own that show the result of an unevenly yoked realtionship. One that relys on things not of God to continue. For instance outings. Family get-togethers, parties, etc... As soon as they stop or there is a break in the normal the relationship is no longer valid. Why? Because the basis of the realtionship is not the Love that God shows and Gives but a love of ownership and possesion. A Love that takes but does not share or understands but only to the point of comfort. Am I saying all christian realtionships are this way. No!.. Not all but they work towards a goal and know who and what their adversary is. As in the case of this each are working towards the same goal therefore they do not pull against each other. Many times the chaos is not in the event but in the values that each old. All of these values are formed by media, books, movies etc.. In a christians life prefereably their values are set by the Holy scriptures. The Bible, God and perhaps a marriage or relationship course taken at their local church. News Flash. Doctor Phil and Oprah Winfrey do not adhere to scripture but the human emotion and in this case you will find temporal solutions but the problem is never dealt with. Dr. Phil and Orprah Winfry use the world to deal with the worlds problems. In otherwords they put Gasoline on a Gasoline Fire.

I am no realtionship expert. Trust me on that one. But I do know that both by personal experience in the world around me I have seen where God Kindgdom clashes with the World and yes people are hurt. Situations do not get better they get worse and ultimatly what is left is wasted lives each pulling in a different direction that ultimatly leads to no progress, no change and compalacny that relies on walking on eggshells for the desire of self-comfort til ultimatly something occurs that breaks the norm and each become discomforted and combative.

Am I saying that this is soul reason. No.. Many realtionships break up for different reasons. But Paul is saying that you will have nothing in common. Your idea of love and theirs will be different. Family vaules will not be the same. Understanding, compassion will not be felt truely. The Bible says the God is Love. If God is Love what love does the world possess. Ownership, Control, Possession, Lust, Self-Appeasing. The Love that God speaks of is Self-Sacrifical, Compassionate, Understanding, Forgiving, CAring, Loving.

The Bible, Christ. God in Heaven puts love this way 1 Corthians 13.

1If I speak in the tongues[1] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[2] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

How beautiful the ideal of Love that this world has twisted. It pains me to see people in a realtionship other than the Godly love that God purposed.

In the Bible we are told that Satan is the great counterfieter.
If this is the case recognize his counterfiet for love. Believe that God might change this person but you abiding in this ideal of love will not change that person. Praticing and being an example of that Love will. God never said would should be a mat to be walked over. We do hold authority in scriptures to test the spirits to make sure they are true. But What love is there away from God. Where has the love you thought was love taken you away from? Perhaps the very love you are looking for is in your Father in Heaven. Perhaps the depression. Th concern the emptiness is the God whom you are seeking but do not know you need or at least don't have the realtionship that you need with him. It is not a matter of how many services or how many scriptures you know. knowing about God and knowing him are two different things. The scriptures say that the demons know God and fear him. But if thats the case does your knowing him do you anygood. Perhaps speaking with him. Talking to him. Praying and reading his word. Breaking bread with him. The Bible says that his word is bread and his spirit is water. That the scriptures are meat. Food for us to eat. Perhaps Fast food is not always the best of choice. Meditation and revelation come hand in hand. How many times have you read something anything. But one day you decided just to read it slower. The word of God that I mentioned in my poem is a love letter from the Creator. Ohh...how beautful it is. How loving, Merciful and Graceful a God we have.

I'll Keep on Calling

A Love Poem from Love.
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I know your really busy and don't have much time
but I wanted just to talk to you and caress you and call you mine.

I know that things are fast and you don't know what to do
but I really wanted just to hold you and tell you "I love you"

I know that you've been sad, lonely and upset.
But I fear that time without me might cause you more regret.

We haven't seen each other I know life's quite a ride.
But remember I will never ever, ever, ever, ever leave your side.

I am not much for words but I left you a love letter.
Over 60 books 30 authors all bound and covered in leather.

I really hope you read it to see that I care
To know how much I love you and the house I'd like to share.

I've spoken to you in many ways but still you look away.
I just want to tell you how I love you each and every day.

I've used other people and the light was seen and then.
You continued on the path before and now you won't let me come back in.

I've called, I've written, I spoken to some friends
But they tell me you rejected them and faked them with a grin.

I've asked you to come and visit me in my place of worship and still you do not come
I want to release you from those chains that bind you in your spiritual prison.

This is my plea and I'm quite sure not the last one
I am your Father...you are my daughters and my sons.

I have not and will not forget you..
I know you each and everyone.

Till the earth is gone and humanity is no more
I'll continue to keep on calling..knocking on your door.

Messengers I've sent words I've given you.
But still you turn and close your eyes. Ohh what must I do!?

My precious son I sent so that you would all be saved.
I knew that many would not choose but still him I gave.

-LFJ

Filled with Wonder

Its th 1 day after the accident and to be honest I am as much wondering what God has in store for my life than I ever have been. It frightens me this world. I have been doing research on many things and it sadens me there are websites out there that teach people how to "properly Blapsphime" God? If you just do a search in Google you will see the oposing force against God. Just search christian hate or kill and you will find the lot of them out there. The very thing that people say does not exist. By the simple search will unweild that there is a dark side. Many of the people play as if it is a joke as if the manifested symbols means nothing. As if it is all a joke. It frightens me just to think many of them do not know what they have gotten themselves into. It makes me want to cry for the lost. The ones that simply do not know. The weight of the lost is a difficult thing to carry that is what Jesus is for. However I do believe that as christians we should do whatever is required to at least let them know what the truth is so they can choose on their own. This is a responsibility God has given those who he has chosen. Saints (Set apart) the saved. Now as how I feel now...hmm Well I know that "All good things come to those who love Christ Jesus" so I am simply waiting to see what he is going to do. I do fear for God never promised that his change would be easy or even magical. But change will come. It comes in his time and in his way. He is potter I am the clay. Sometimes a realy messed up piece of clay but clay none the less. It is nice to know though that his is working on perfection. Also that he will not stop till his will is done. There is a great comfort in that. So as I eat this peanut butter sandwich. I am not only filled with wonder bread but wonder of the magnificant life that God has given me. Thank you.

Breaking you from your Circumstances

I recently was listening to a CD where a man by the name of Jesse spoke to me.
He was telling me that God was going to break me from my circumstances. I never take a word given to me in contemp but there was a time even right then and there as he was speaking with me. Anyone might have said yeah right! But as I am writing this to you in pain. I just got back from the emergency. I got in a 4 Car pileup on the freeway. My car is no longer drivable. I have to ask. Why? But then again I know that God has his eyes on me. He is protected me and I praise God for protecting me and my daughter when things could have been far worse. God is amazing anyone who does not think so needs to spend more time with him. He bread his breath, his love is so amazing. I praise him again for sparing me any real damage. I felt his hand of protection and now I feel his precense of provision. I pray that the things that God has decided to do in my life will come without much more pain. This neck is killing me and my Back is worse. I cannot stay here much longer I will need to go to sleep. I just thought it might be very important to insert this 4 Car pile up in this BLog as well as State the Great things that God has and is doing my life. WOW..! you are awsome!